Monday, January 31, 2005 / Monday, January 31, 2005
its kinda hard to believe wad is going on around me...haiz...its been a long time since i felt so fan nao le... well... i went sparks with two days ago...first time dere... wasnt realli comfortable...but no choice...cant go off juz like tt... hmm... smt...juz wish my gd budz could understand me...haiz... she can realli say hurtful stuff to me at times..and she duno wad she said...haiz... also duno why when i told her i went there..she said i've changed...though it may be juz these simple words..but it actualli meant alot to me...its not as if i want to go de ma... p:s:hope u are reading this..u know hu u r..
well...got pretty drunk...so diu lian...haiz...dun even know wad i am doing also...but luckily..got ppl take care...thanks eh...heez...next day...still had to go back work...sianz...dun go also canot... den whole day i was like a walking zombie... head pain...cold..wah...everything tats bad juz turn on to me...sway... den so fed up with the people there... arhhhhh!!! somemore had to stay up pretty late cuz of those customers who are juzt trying for the sake of trying...realli felt like screaming xia....-_-"'
again...i'm at eddie's hse...together with gerard and zhen...juz had supper...haiz...like so embarassed...everytime had to borrow his hse com for the sake of this blog and mails...haha...well...duno why...i am juz so vexed... maybe because i am uncertain abt some stuff...it juz came so sudden...cuz it left juz as sudden abt 1/2 yr ago...didnt expect myself to think abt all these vexing prob again...haha...maybe i shldnt think too much...cuz in the end i might juz be deceiving myself..well...duno la...
lets see...today...i am gona relax! though tml had to wk again... hmm... staying at hme realli makes me sick one day... dun wana face the ceiling or tok to my diary...at least nw..still can tok to my few budz...now...now..now...hahaha...wad now..also duno leh...juz let me cont waiting ba...wait till i age..i die...also dun mind..since i've already waited for so long...juz as wad poon had told me..."dun let heartbreak be my long time fren..." haiz...will always rmb tat...cuz it kept on lingering in my mind these past few days...poon ah...u ah...make me until lidat..but thanks anyway..noe u meant good to me..and thanks for the meet up at night and tat luo suo letter...realli appreciate it..so nice to hav u ard..heez..haiz..for now.. let me pray for myself ba..
once again... wana ask all of those ppl whu wasted their time to read this to take care..since u care..heez...bao zhong wor...to all...and those whu are waiting for results.......juz like me.....
keep calm..hehe...although its hard to...but try la k... jia you wor..
